belief

Every morning, I start the day by reading the day's prediction for my sun sign. I am not in the least bit superstitious but somehow, I end up getting affected and nodding my head solemnly at that paragraph lamenting on how unlucky/fortunate I am based on what is written. I don’t think there has been a single day when those predictions have come true yet, I don’t seem to want to break that habit or skip that page.
You might agree with me and might even be doing the exact same thing.
We are victims of belief. We want to be comfortable with some assurance about what lies ahead. We just want to be prepared for the unforeseen, however unpleasant it may be. My belief about certain things, people, circumstances and even events make me the person I am. It might be based on past experiences or irrational thoughts which have no base, but I can’t seem to shake off that belief that I need to be in control of situations. For which, I need to have an inkling about what I should expect. Sometimes, I just let go. It seems like I am walking in the dark then. It can be nerve wrecking if you aren’t the calm sorts.
There are a lot of people I know who love living like that. I envy them. Really.
Imagine having no nagging doubts about life, no fears whatsoever determining your actions. No situations etched in your memory that stop you from trying out something new. You believe in nothing and no one can falter you. You are simply not perturbed by anything that lands your way, however unpleasant or challenging it is. I coach myself into looking at the future with renewed enthusiasm. To embrace change when it’s needed. To not be affected by factors beyond my control. To live each day as it comes without jumping to conclusions about things which might never even happen.
I am going to try it. Give up on being a control freak and try and be more generous with myself. Forget my annoyances and complaints about what’s going wrong. Concentrate on what’s going right and what path I should follow to make the wrongs go right. My life might not get better but heck, at least I will land up believing in myself and not a paragraph in the paper.

disconnection that works

Disconnecting gives me immense joy. You must be thinking I am a rude, arrogant, high-handed woman to say such a thing openly. After all, which cold hearted person does such a thing and admits to liking it.
I'll be honest. I can't think of a better way to stop negativity from destroying my system.
For those who are lost, I am not talking about disconnecting calls. I am talking about disconnecting from situations that are too hard to handle. It's not the coward's way out. I think disconnecting actually helps you evaluate and calm down. Some time out can actually help you plan your next course of action.
When I was younger , I found it difficult to cut myself from unpleasant situations. As a result, I found myself agitated, irritated and at times, even depressed. Over the years, I realised that cutting out is perhaps the best way to ensure you move ahead. It stops you from self doubt, agony and sometimes, even helps you arrive upon a sensible solution to your problems.
It seems like a difficult thing to do but it's quite easy. Just take a deep breath, exhale all those thoughts out of your system and simply don't let them enter your mind again. Just block them out. Stay away from the situation that disturbs you. Disconnect till you have had time to evaluate it and figure out a solution. It takes effort and it takes time. However, it is the best thing that you can do to be happy. Try it out when you feel like you are drowning. It's a life saver.

the greed for more

We grow up wanting more.
More love, affection, food, comfort, clothes, money, beauty...the list is endless.
As a child, I was often told, "Don't ask for more. Be happy with what you have."
I never listened.
I don't think we are happy with what we have. We feel that we deserve more.
I fail to see why that is a bad thing. Why should wanting more be bad? It is good to be ambitious. It is good to want to be the best. It is good to demand more out of life. It isn't good however, to be miserable in the process.
Often, in our pursuit of happiness, we forget to be happy. We are driven by greed and the need to make life better and in the chase we forget the very reason we are doing the said activity.
Strange but true. Very few people know when to draw the line. I can assure you that more often than not, i fail to see that line too.
I want to see that line. I want to stop before misery takes over my life. I want to be happy with what I have. I want to be in control of my emotions.
I want so many things... there, i am not happy with what I have yet again!